Welcome to the Restored podcast, helping you heal and grow from the trauma of your parents' divorce or separation so you can feel whole again. I'm your host, Joey Pontarelli. Thank you so much for listening. This is episode 34 and as 2020 comes to a close, we wanted to do something a little bit different. So we created, uh, an episode with highlights from the episodes that we produced this year and what you're gonna hear 10 excerpts from those episodes. And if you're new to the podcast, this is perfect for you, cuz you get a little sample of what our content is like. It's also great if maybe you've been listening to the, uh, podcast for a while, but you've missed a few. This will give you a good overview of our content as well.

And we cover a lot of different topics. Everything from, you know, building love that lasts, finding a spouse, navigating single life. We also hear stories from our audience about how their parents divorced has affected them. We talk. How to avoid repeating the mistakes that you saw in your parents' marriage.

So you can have a great marriage and avoid getting divorced yourself. We speak to a Navy seal on how to say calm. In a crisis, talked to psychologists on how to handle anxiety and fear and much more. And these episodes that you're gonna hear, that the clips that you're gonna hear are in no particular order.

Uh, we wanted to pick every episode from this year, but of course we couldn't. So we had to narrow it down to 10 and some of these are based on the episodes that were the most popular. That you guys loved be there were a lot of downloads for those episodes. Uh, others were based on just, uh, things that stood out to us episodes that we wanted to, to highlight because we thought that they needed to be highlighted now, by the way, I, if you wanna listen to the episodes that we present, In this particular episode, maybe you wanna go back and listen to the full thing instead of just the, the clip you can do that, uh, throughout the show, I'll guide you through it and I'll tell you which episode it is, but we're also gonna have a list in our show notes.

If you want to go back, maybe forget which episode it was, you can go back and see the list and that list will be available@restoredministry.com slash 32. Again, restored ministry.com/ 32. And I'll remind you about that at the. First up is episode 18 with Jason ever titled the dating blueprint, what women want, but won't tell men, this is by far our most popular episode and a lot of great practical guidance for men on how to pursue a woman the right way.

And so my question to do you, yeah. How can a man know if she's the one I know if they'll read the book, the guys will get 10 questions asked to know if she's the one, but what do you, uh, explain a little bit about how they can know that? Yeah. Well, I mean, one of the things you gotta do is like, okay, what is it you you're really looking for in a, in a future spouse?

You know, do you want, um, are you in a agreement in terms of like the size of a family? Is it in terms of like, does she possess a virtue? Because even if you marry miss universe, But she does not possess virtue. You will have a miserable marriage. Whereas if you marry someone who might not be miss universe, but you're still attracted to her, but she has virtue.

You're gonna have a happy marriage. And so you really gotta ask, you know, does, does she possess virtue? Is she working on that? It doesn't mean that she's gotta be a Saint, but she at least needs to want. To be one, uh, you've gotta ask yourself to fam does she share your faith? You know, hopefully that's something that's important to you and that you're gonna want your kids to be saints.

And is she gonna help you get to heaven? So you've gotta ask that stuff. I mean, you know, does your relationship have a good history, you know, or is it been an emotional roller coaster soap, opera, you know, drama fighting bickering back together, break apart. Because the best indication, the future of relationship is a passive relationship.

And if the past has been pretty darn Rocky, um, that's probably what you have to look forward to for a lifetime, because it's like, well, you know, she's really stressed right now, or I'm really stressed. And so I've done this that well, trust me, marriage has infinitely more stress. Then you're gonna have as a single person dating.

And so you've gotta really take into consideration, you know, are you ready as well? It's not just like, okay, is she ready? Cuz if so, well then I just gotta plug that into my life and we're good to go. You've gotta look into your own life. Am I ready? What do the people who love me think about her? You know, do my parents think that she'd be an awesome spouse or do the people who care about me the most tend to point out some red flags, Hey, you know, keep an eye on this.

You know, that that could be an issue, you know? And I know this is a, this last one's kind of a tough one because it's not up to her. I mean, she, this is beyond her control, but it's almost like a bonus point. If her parents have a strong marriage, it's such a blessing. In an effect, she will have sat in a classroom of authentic love for the first 18 years of her life.

Whereas I, if she was not unfortunately raised in that environment and her parents had a broken relationship, divorce fighting, whatever, you know, it doesn't mean that she's incapable of love or incapable of a happy, wonderful. Marriage, but it's just gonna be an extra challenge in a sense for her and maybe for you as she perhaps needs to learn and develop the skills that she never had, the blessing of witnessing.

And so that can be a challenge, you know, but it's not a deal breaker by any extent. I mean, I, I was able to come thanks me to God from parents who still are married today. My wife came from, you know, a very broken family and, uh, you know, but, and she'll be the first to admit, you know, that. You know, creates an uphill struggle when you don't get to see what that interaction is supposed to look like from a husband and a wife.

So, you know, so those are some questions. What guy needs to look at. Not only is this the right girl, but is this even the right time, you know, for her, for me, because even if you find the right girl, it might not be the right time to jump into relationship. You know, maybe she's going to. UCLA next year, and you're going to Louisiana state university, and you're gonna have a long distance relationship, 4,000 miles apart for the next, you know, who knows how many years it can be pretty difficult.

And so you really gotta discern not just is this the right girl, but is this the right time? Love that I love what you said about virtue two. That being really the main goal of finding a woman who's virtuous. And I know what I've seen in marriages around me is that the more virtuous the spouse is the happier the marriage.

And so I think it's really. Secret to a happy marriage is find a virtuous spouse. Be virtuous yourself. Yeah. It's, it's not much more difficult than that. Marriage is very difficult, but if, if you can both, you know, be pursuing virtue, uh, you're far more likely to have a happy life together.

Next up is Sarah Swafford. I love Sarah. She's incredible. Uh, this is episode 20 called navigating singleness, and she shares a beautiful story about her husband who comes from a really broken home.

I think the two questions that we as human beings ask ourselves the most, we very rarely ask them out loud, but we ask them in our heads all the time and in different ways is, am I enough? And am I ever gonna be truly loved? Hmm. Like, am I enough? And am I ever gonna be truly loved? And they, they go very closely together, right?

Because, because you know, it's one of those things where if you see what you want and someone has. Like, it's so easy as a human being to look at that and then go, well, I mu like for some reason them being up on that, you know, I don't wanna say pedestal or that stair that's like right above where I wanna be, you know, whatever that is.

Like, whatever I'm looking at them, they're standing on, let's say a bench. You know what I mean? I see them standing there and because I can see them and they have what I want. Therefore I'm a notch down because I'm looking at what I want and I don't have it. Therefore, somehow. Like you just said, shame, you know, identity, you know, insecurity, doubt, fear, anger, bitterness, how many emotions can we put to that?

Right. Like, I mean, totally. I could talk for days on bitterness and, and I think that everybody out there, you know, especially you're restored community who, and again, I don't have, I wish I had a counseling degree cause I, I can't speak to this as articulately as I would like to, but like I've walked with thousand.

Of people over the last, you know, years, because I'm so close to, um, Benedictine college is I, I live across the street from 2000 college students and, and the, the thing that I just, I think I need your people, your people, I think I want your restored community to hear like very loud and clear is just that like, I really want them to shine that light.

That can be kind of hard to talk about, which is that whole idea of like, when other people have like the family that you want, or other people have the marriage that you want, or the relationship that you want or whatever. I think it's really important to look at it and say, just because that's not what you have now does not mean that that's not what's in store for you.

And I think that for a lot of single. It's really easy to take the past and project it upon the future. So you take that divorce and everything that happened as your parents were separated. You take that moment when you were bullied in seventh grade, you take that moment when you were dumped by your first boyfriend or girlfriend, you take that moment when you're standing with a group of girls and.

Some like random guys come by and like call out one girl as hot. And you are just standing there feeling super awkward, right? Like, I mean, you, you have all these experiences in life where you were not chosen or it wasn't the what, like you bring all of that to the present. And then we are so good as human beings at like throwing it on the future as well.

Like we take all of that and we just put it on the future and we go, well, this is how it's always gonna. Like, this is my, this is what's gonna happen. And, and one of the, the people that I love to raise up for this is my husband. My husband comes, uh, I don't, if your people don't know him, I, I call him SW.

His name is Dr. Andrew Swafford. We all call him doc SW, SW SW daddy PW. um, he has lots of names, but he teaches, uh, here at Benedictine and he comes from a very broken home is like extremely broken home. And, um, It's one of those things where like, his parents are married, but we're not really sure why, you know what I mean?

Like, so just think broken home, right? Think like a lot of verbal abuse, he grew up just like really doubting and questioning his worth and doubting and questioning a lot of what he wanted for his life because of how broken his, his childhood. Was, and so, you know, he fast forward into, you know, college, high school making decisions, just kinda living for the moment.

You know, it was really hard to like look forward. And I remember, um, after his conversion, um, with he actually, we, we both had our conversions through, um, at Benedictine college through focus, but also through Beth and Ted Shree, Dr. Shree and Beth. And I know that, um, you'll either know them or they, or your people do know them.

And, um, there was something really beautiful. We, we got engaged. I remember one. I found, we were like driving and all of sudden, like SW got really quiet. And I was like, what? And he's like, he just started crying. And I mean, he is a big, like six foot football player. So like, you know, I was like, whoa, the dude's crying.

Like this is an important moment. Like something's going on? And he just looked at me and he goes, I don't know. If I can do this whole marriage and, and fatherhood thing, because I don't know what it should look like, but in, and he's like, I don't know if I know what it takes and I don't know if I can do this.

And it was such a, it was this beautiful moment. Like, I just don't know what if I don't know how to do this. And it was so beautiful because, um, I don't know. It was just like in the moment I just looked at him and I go, the reason why you're gonna be an amazing father and an amazing husband is because you want it.

and you're willing to work for it. And so for all your single people out there who are feeling shame from past relationships, if you're feeling like my family's really broken, if you're feeling like I'm late to this ball game, like I'm late to this, like understanding why my life has been the way it is and it's been dark and I've made mistakes.

And like, I feel shame. I I'm gonna hold up my husband, his poster boy, because he is, he was exactly where a lot of you are, which is. Am I too far gone, like, am I have I already screwed up my kids, even though I haven't had them yet, like, am I gonna be able to be a husband like that? I wanna be, and then does anybody want me because I'm kinda a mess and like, there's gonna be baggage for sure.

And I just, I really hold up someone like SWA again, he's my example because I know him so well in, and I know his story. So intimately it's easier for me to. It's almost my story now because we're married. You know what I mean? Like I like that's how deeply I feel it. And so I just, I wanna hold that up to all to Shane, to everybody out there.

Who's like feeling that, like, what if I've never chosen? What if so, what if I'm continue to be overlooked? What if I continue to feel forgotten or dismissed or all those words? And I just really, I want you to like, bring that to like, kinda what we said with the loneliness. Like let's acknowledge. Let's acknowledge that you're feeling that way.

Let let's be real about it, right? That's good. But you can't take your whole past and throw it upon the future and be like, this is the way.

We're gonna bring Jason Everett back. This is a different episode than before number 19, how to find your soulmate without losing your soul. The other one was for the men, ladies. This one is for you so much wisdom here to help you find the love that you deserve.

You give a list of the top 10 guys to avoid. We do describe one or two of them. We can't go through through all of 'em of course. But you, would you describe a couple? Yeah. One, one, you know, one of the biggest ones is the flip Flo, you know, we're one minute, you know, you are the best things to slice bread.

The whole world revolves around you. And the next minute he's not even answering his cell phone, not picking up, not returning your text messages. And then he is kinda goes dark for a while. And then he kind of thinks he's into this other girl, maybe, but then he is back with you and he, you know, oh no, you're the one I.

And if you put your heart in the hands of a guy like that, I mean, it is a emotional rollercoaster that will take a significant toll on you. And so nobody can take you out of that situation. You have to choose to unplug yourself and be like, you know what? I don't need some indecisive flip floppy boy, because the fact is, men are simple creatures.

If we wanna be with a woman. We'll act in such a fashion. Uh, and, and so girls don't need to stay up at night creating 10,000 excuses and, you know, justifications for why he's not getting, oh, well, maybe he's really busy and you know, maybe this and maybe that it's like, no, if a guy, everyone deserves to be with someone who wants to be with them and you as a woman deserve those things.

And so you should hold out for it. And so that was one of the guys we really highlighted in there. And then the other guys, another one, just one more is the kind of the smooth. And meaning by that, he's not gonna pressure you too much to do sexual things, but he'll literally take everything that you're willing to give.

And I remember one guy came up to me after a chance that he talked at his school before I was heading over to the all girls school. And he said, do you ever tell the girls that we tell them we're okay. Not doing something sexual, just so that they'll give it to. And I said, yeah, I actually do point that out to them that there are guys out there like that who think that it's the girl's job to be the Chasity cop and he can push the envelope gently and quote unquote, respectfully.

And Hey, if she's willing to do it, I'm okay with it. If she's not willing, then I'm okay. But he's never really gonna lead that relationship in a positive direction. He's just gonna continue inch by inch to see how much he can take as much as she's willing to give. and that's not the guy you want to end up with.

You want a guy? Who's gonna realize that. Hey, guess what? Like girls have temptations too. It's not just the. and when she's tempted, he needs to be strong. Instead of every time she's tempted that both of them fall. And so you, you know, those are just two of the 10 guys that we kinda highlight in the book.

Um, but that's how we start. The book is jumping right into that whole section because you know, girls need to realize like you are not alone. In your desire to find authentic love, and you're not alone in your frustration and how difficult it's been up to this point. But if we could just weed out the wrong kind of guys to get started, you know, you're, you're definitely gonna be off the right on the foot.

Switching gears a little bit. We're gonna hear from Jen. This is episode. The title is, I thought my parents' divorce didn't affect me. And I think there's so many of us who have Jen's experience where we, we go through life and the brokenness in our family is kind of just normal. And so we don't think much about it.

We don't think maybe. Too much into how that has affected us or how it's connected to the struggles that we deal with today. Uh, but then sooner or later kind of hits us in the face and then we have to deal with it. And that's exactly what happened in Jen's life. Now, you're not gonna hear her full story to, to do that, listen to, to episode 11, but you're just gonna hear part of it where especially she kind of woke up and saw man.

So many of the things that I struggle with right now are connected to the breakdown of my family.

um, it's just funny. It's funny to like think back on it and how normal it did feel. Mm-hmm um, and I think that really, it does play into a lot, um, of my difficulties and struggles later on. Um, and we'll definitely get into that, but yeah, so essentially I had a, I lived a good life and I have a good life.

Um, and I. Grew up my entire life, believing that, you know, I went to college or I, I did well in school growing up. Like I was, you know, definitely one of the kids that, um, got good grades, didn't get in trouble. Um, those types of things, we can come back to that in a little bit, but, you know, I just, I did what I had to do.

Like I was. I was a, I was a good kid, you know, um, went to college, graduated college. I, uh, graduated with my nursing degree. So I found a, a really great job at one of the top pediatric facilities in the area. I did that for a while. I served in Honduras. I lived in Honduras. Um, I. Went to like, I lived in Florida, um, and did some other things, you know, and came back to this area for my job.

I bought a home, I bought a condo, you know, like, so from the outside very much like my parents' divorce had no bearing on my life, had no effect. On my life. And I was very proud of myself because of that, that, yes, like I'm one of those people that my divorce or my parents' divorce didn't affect me. And I believed that and I was very like proud of that, you know?

And that was kind of the. The narrative that I was taught to believe anyway, because mm-hmm, right. Because as we know, like kids are resilient and all of these things and whatnot. And I just, I was very like, proud that I see proof that I everything's good look at my life, like all these wonderful things and, and it is good.

And I did do some wonderful things, but interestingly, uh, when I was in Hondura. Um, that actually really opened up a lot for me. I describe it as a stripping away of everything. And obviously like, um, mission work, especially overseas mission work does do that in many aspects. Um, but I realized at the time, you know, being in a different culture, being in a place, I didn't know anybody and, you know, learning something completely new and all of these different.

I didn't have my normal, I didn't have my sense of normal. You know, my family wasn't around my, you know, my normal like sense of comfort. It really kind of exposed something deeper inside of me that I, at this point now had nothing to keep it together. Hm. And at the time now I can only verbalize this with many years of therapy, because at the time I, I really just thought that I was struggling with being a missionary and being in Honduras.

Like I just really thought I was like, one of those people, like, gosh, maybe this isn't the life for me. Like, I can't really cut it out. And, and all of this. In retrospect. And in hindsight, and after much healing, I realized like that was the beginning of like, this wound that I had that was, was essentially like ripped, like open and exposed.

And it just, uh, like I needed to, like, I couldn't do anything about it. It was there. And so I was in a really difficult place, like, and it was a really dark place and I knew that I had to leave, but I couldn't really verbalize it. So I actually ended up leaving. Honduras early and was like, I just need to figure it out.

I didn't know what, I, I didn't know what I was figuring out, but I knew I needed to figure something out. Cause clearly I was, I was really, really struggling.

Next up is Miranda that's episode eight, the hardest. Part of my life. And in that episode, she actually read an article that she wrote called dear divorce. And so I wanna share that with you, if you didn't hear it. It's excellent. And in the rest of the episode, of course, we kind of dive into her story and into the article that she wrote, but this article is really powerful.

It really articulates well, uh, the struggles that she dealt with. When her parents got divorced and it speaks to so on so many levels to a lot of the things that we struggle with, uh, as children of divorce, as people whose parents are separated or divorced.

Dear divorce, thanks to you. I learned nothing on earth lasts as long as it should. Dear divorce, you spread the heinous lie. That happiness is on the other side of leaving. That is the only. You convince them that children are resilient after all. We want you to be happy. Dear divorce. You taught me to trust no one, not even those who say I love you.

Not even myself. Dear divorce. You showed me how my world can come crashing down on me at any moment. So don't get too comfortable. Dear divorce, you made nights slow torture. As I tried to manage the pain in the darkness alone, stop crying, stop crying, stop crying. Dear divorce. You taught me to isolate myself to keep my distance.

To remain unattached to fear instead of love. Dear divorce, you made me desperate for attention, but wary of affection, you convinced me to clinging instead of trust, because they will leave. They will. Dear divorce. You cause guilt to follow me every day of my life. Guilt. That envelopes me though. It wasn't my fault.

It wasn't my fault. It wasn't my fault. It wasn't my fault. Dear divorce, you made closeness. Feel impossible. Love seem unattainable. Dear divorce. You made me feel unlovable that I am not worthy and never good enough. You told me that something is wrong with me. It must be dear divorce. You filled me with rage, but gave me no way to express it.

You told me to shove it down deep, deep. I'm angry. I'm angry. I'm angry. Dear divorce. You left me with the heart of a broken child, a heart two week to love. Two hurt to be held. It hurts. Dear divorce, you stole my Haven. My comfort, my security. You just took. You bastard, dear divorce. You'll never know what it's like to make a vow to someone and keep it until you die.

You'll never grow old with the person you promise till death do is part you'll never experience the unconditional love from one person all of your days. You'll never know what it's like to come home to the same people. The same person year after year, dear divorce. You'll never know what they mean. The words, love and family and stay dear divorce.

You will miss out on countless moments, hugs and kisses, tears, and breakthroughs, frights and grief, forgiveness, and reconciliations first. And. You lost them and you will never get them back. The ghost of memories will haunt you until your lonely death. What could have been, you will never know what could have been.

What was on the other side of staying the forgiveness, the grace, the love. I pity you. Dear divorce. You thought you had me, you believed I would buy into the Treacher lies, but I won't. You have led many others astray lured them with your sirens call, but not me. I will never be yours. I have seen too much.

The charm of freedom is only loneliness. The happiness you promise is empty. A black hole of egotistical wishes. I know the suffering. I know the fallout. I know the pain. I know I will never choose. Not as long as I live, you are dark, sad and alone. I pity you. Dear divorce. Thanks to you. I know that I will never be yours,

such a moving article. As soon as I read that, I knew that I wanted to have Miranda. On the podcast and, uh, throughout this year Miranda and I have gotten to know each other more and I've been so impressed with her content and with her as a person that we actually brought her on board. She's now one of our team members at restored, she's our director of content and what we're just thrilled to have her.

And we're growing at restored because we have to fill this need this huge problem. Cuz the truth is as many of you know that there are millions of people like Miranda. There are millions of people like Jen. In fact, the us census data shows that each year over 1 million American children go through their parents' divorce.

Now, if you think of the 1990s alone, that's 10 million children, right within that 10 year span, that's the size of Sweden to say, this is a big problem is such an understatement. And what's baffled me is why are there so few resources for people like us, people from broken families. I can't say I have the answer to that question.

It really does baffle me, but I can tell you that restored is doing something about it. We wanna build those resources. We wanna meet the needs of young people who come from broken homes. That's really the reason that I started restored. And our vision at ReSTOR is to reverse the cycle of divorce by helping teenagers and young adults to heal and build virtue.

The sad truth is that children of divorce are much more likely to get divorced themselves, thereby repeating the cycle and passing the brokenness onto future generations. And what they really need is healing and building virtue. And if they heal and build virtue, there'll be strong virtuous individuals and strong virtuous individual.

They make great marriages and marriage of course, is the foundation of the family. So if we have great marriages, we have strong families. If we have strong families, we'll really heal our world, heal our culture, transform our world. And that's what we're all about. How are we gonna do that? By giving teenagers and young adults, the practical guidance and the support that they need to heal and grow through our content.

Like this podcast talks that I give books, our blogs. So on coaching, our network of trusted counselors and spiritual directors and community, our private online community, where young people can speak freely about the, the struggles that they have, the pain and the problems in their life, and also be challenged to grow and to, to better stronger people.

Now. Barely scratch the surface. There's so much more that we wanna do, but honestly, a lot of it's already working and it's, it's really encouraging to see that. In fact, uh, I wanna share what Eric said about resort. He's a man in his twenties and he personally knows the impact divorce and family trauma has.

On people. Here's what he said. He said, I absolutely love the podcast. It seriously feels like it's a life hack listening to it. It helps so much. What you're doing here is very important and meaningful. I haven't seen any other attempts to support people who suffer from their parents' divorce. And even if there are other attempts out there, yours is likely far.

I am not particularly religious though. That doesn't mean I'm not open minded. It's more of a habit developed from years of being angry at whatever divine being is out there. This podcast and everything you're doing is extremely helpful to anyone religious or not. Who is struggling with their broken family.

He goes on to say, I hope you make a thousand more episodes on your podcast because that's what really made me realize that all the weird stuff I've been through, isn't abnormal for someone in our position, which is beyond healing, keep doing what you're doing. You really are making a significant, positive impact on people's lives.

Eric. Thank you so much for the kind words. It makes me so happy to read that you are the reason that restored exists. It was built for people like you, people like me. And so it's awesome to see that it's working to help people who come from broken families. Not like I said, we have so many plans for the future about how we wanna help young people.

Like Eric. And even though we have a, a small team and a very limited budget, we've actually worked really hard this year to serve young people from broken families. We've produced 27 podcast episodes. With 13,000 downloads. We built a, a studio for podcasts and video production. We began publishing our first.

Book, which I'm really excited about. I'll tell you more about that in future episodes. Uh, we grew our coaching wait list to 45 people. Again, the coaching network, which we're building is a network of counselors and spiritual directors that we trust that we recommend that we vet for you guys. Our online community grew as well.

We hired four team members. I mentioned, uh, Miranda. We hired three other team members as well. I delivered multiple talks, honored to speak at different universities, different online event. It was awesome. I had the opportunity to participated in an expert round table with two counselors on how parents can help their kids through their divorce.

And so there's all that, and there's much more that I won't get into, but like I said, we've only scratched the surface. We have so much planned ahead. And if you wanna hear about our 2020 plans, uh, go ahead and subscribe to our email list at restored ministry. Dot com people often email me and they say, I love what you're doing.

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And since most people can't give a hundred dollars a month or even $50 a month, we're just asking for 25. Dollars a month. And I know not just, I know it's a big sacrifice for a lot of people, but, but if you would make that gift, it would make such a difference. Monthly gifts are so essential to helping us know how to plan for the future.

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It's really simple. You choose your frequency, choose the amount you want to give, enter some other info. Then you submit the form and that's gonna help us to grow restored and reach. More young people who come from broken families. Now you may be thinking, well, what if I need to cancel or pause it? You can really easily do that.

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And the truth is. Young people from broken homes have been neglected long enough. It isn't right. And so restored is fixing that. And speaking about restored, uh, Graciela said it perfectly. She said, I wish I had resources like this. When I was growing up, we wanna be that resource. We don't want people to grow up and look back and say, man, I lost so much in my life.

I suffered in this way and that way, and I felt alone. I didn't know how to handle it all. We wanna help people to heal to grow so they can feel whole again and become, you know, who they were created to be, to live their best life. While those monthly donations help a ton. If you can only make a, a special gift often called a, a one time gift.

We appreciate that so much. And if you'd like to make a large. Special gift. I'd love to talk with you. And so you can email me. You can contact me@joeyrestoredministry.com. Again, that's Joey restored ministry.com. I'd love to hear from you. I'd love to tell you a little bit more about our plans for the future.

So please donate today. If you can do that monthly gift, especially, or maybe a one time special gift@restoredministry.com slash Don. All right back to the content. So next up we have Dr. Julia Sadusky, she's our doctor in psychology. And this episode is number 13. Why we repeat our parents' mistakes and how to avoid it?

This one, I love this episode. I think it's one of our most underrated episodes. It's so good. We, we get into the psychology of why we often do the things that we despise in other people. And so, so much good stuff. In this episode, we're obviously only gonna play you a clip, but I really encourage you to go back and listen to episode 13, by the way, we recorded this at a restaurant at a happy hour in Denver.

This is before COVID all the lockdowns. And so you may need to turn up your volume a little bit because there's some background noise.

I'd like to walk through a concrete example, just taking what we've talked about and applying it to a scenario that, uh, may be familiar to some people mm-hmm and let's say, let's say there's a boy whose dad cheated on his mom. Mm-hmm okay. And then he. he doesn't want to repeat that. Yeah. He kind of despises that, that hurt him too.

Yeah. Because, you know, as we know when there's an affair in a family, whether it's a mom or a dad, they're not just cheating on the spouse, but on the kids as well. And so like the boys hurt and then later in life for the reasons we've discussed and maybe others that can't really be understood. Mm-hmm . He ends up cheating on his wife.

Right? Why what's going on there? What is he looking for in the midst of that? Talk us through talk us through that. Yeah. Well, I think, I think, you know, we've talked about that fantasy piece. I mean, part of it is that there will be a different ending that could mean, you know, I have this affair and it doesn't have the negative impact it had on me.

Part of it is I'm gonna test myself. I'm gonna put myself in those situations and hope that I'm stronger in the ways that my parent wants it. And so part of it's that not really appreciating that this does not discriminate. And I think part of it is that kind of desire to be. And the fear of what it would mean to acknowledge that dad made mistakes, the anger that flows from that, the regret that flows from that, the resentment that inevitably comes that ill equips.

We don't know what to do with. So I think that's what makes the healing process. Food is so essential is that none of us are exempt from this. You know, those of us who are, who have experienced divorce in our families, we know that in 99% of cases, people don't stand at that alter and lie. Yeah. You know, they commit to something willfully and they break that out.

and so being able to appreciate nobody is exempt and being able to talk about the challenges they're in and being able to talk about the moments that put you at great risk and being able to plan for them. and to invest in a relationship lifelong, that will not be what an affair offers are important because the forbidden fruit is desirable, but it's not meaningful.

Mm-hmm and it leaves us one thing. Yeah. So we have to play that tape through.

Episode 15 is next. This is called calm is contagious. It's with retired Navy seal Mike sore. Mike's an incredible man. I've had the honor of getting to know him. Uh, he just talks about how the Navy seals remain calm in chaotic situations. There's some lessons in here, especially for any of you out there who lead someone.

It probably leads someone in some capacity. And so some really good lessons about sing calm. In chaos, which honestly can often just be the environment within our families.

I, if you go back to the actual assessment and selection for special operations, which is, you know, what our version of the hiring process, it actually screens exactly for what, what, what you're describing is people that are, uh, have the ability to remain calm when push to their thresholds, to push to their, uh, their limits, special operations thrives in what we call a VUCA environment.

And what VUCA stands for is volatility. Uncertainty complexity and ambiguity, and it takes a unique individual to remain calm when in that environment. And, and quite frankly, uh, during global war terror, our special operators were, were thrust into those, uh, environments deployment after deployment, after deployment.

And so we look for a very unique individual that can remain calm. As you've often heard, you know, JCA willin in lay Babin, the co-authors of extreme ownership. Talk about an ineffective leader versus an effective leader. An ineffective leader is the one that loses their composure. During chaotic times.

And when the person you're following, uh, becomes chaotic, you tend to match, uh, their sort of temperament, nothing gets solved. Things, get worse with, uh, effective leaders on a battlefield. And what I've seen is those ones that remain calm. It's almost like a disease in itself. We, we have a phrase in the, in special operations community, calm is contagious.

And if you, as a leader, in a position of authority are calm, your people will remain calm as well.

OnDeck is episode 22. I love this episode because it's short. It's so practical. It's an exercise that you can do for healing. And I get into a little bit, I don't say how to do it in this clip, but if you wanna listen to the episode it's episode 22, again, it's really short. And it's an incredibly effective exercise.

Uh, like you'll hear me say, brought me to tears. And I was talking to someone else, uh, friend of mine in the Denver area who listens to the podcast. And he was saying that it made him cry too. And both of us are pretty manly dudes. We're not crying a lot. And so, uh, it's a very effective exercise and I hope that, uh, yeah, you'll listen to episode 22 and do the exercise as.

If you could go back in time and have a conversation with a little version of you, what would you say? Something that's really common for people whose parents are separated or divorced is that nobody really asks us about how we feel. Nobody really asks us how it all affected us. And nobody really cares for.

In that way. And I think of Erin in episode 16, she shared her story about, you know, all of her friends, her family, and even her teachers knew about her parents' separation, but everyone kind of acted like it wasn't a big deal. Everyone acted like it was normal, even though she was really hurting because of it.

And so it made her feel like something was wrong with her. And that is so common. And the result often is that we just bottle those feelings up inside. We just keep them hidden. We have no outlet for them, even though we're dying to be heard, to be seen for someone to just validate our pain and listen to us.

Now, of course you can't go back in time, but what if I told you, there's a way for you to kind of talk with. The little version of you to have a self dialogue with that younger version of yourself. And I'm not talking about some bizarre self-help crystals thing. No, there's lots of weird stuff out there.

We don't condone any of that. I'm just talking about a simple, psychological exercise that I learned from a counselor that I know that'll help. You kind of have an imaginary dialogue with that little version of yourself. And I know some of you may be thinking, oh, that's not like me. I don't do stuff like that, but please give this a shot, give it a shot.

I did it. And it made me cry and I'm not someone who really cries easily. It was just so helpful. And it just got to the core of so many of my wounds over the years. Now, if you do it, I think you'll find that it's surprisingly healing. That'll bring a lot of relief because you're giving the little, you a chance to speak out in a way that maybe you were never even able to do.

And it may even open parts of your heart that you just had closed off for years even. And you might even find that this exercise calms some of those really intense emotion. That you feel like anger because those difficult emotions that we deal with are intimately connected to the wounds that we sustained over the years.

And really the best part of the exercise is that it's simple to do. It's not complicated and it doesn't take long at all. It could be as simple as 20 minutes or as long as you really want it.

Next up is episode 32, how to navigate the holiday. Advice from 11 children, no divorce. So basically through social and email, we asked our audience to submit their advice. Like what, what's one tip that you would give to young people who are going through the holidays with their broken family who are trying to navigate the holidays.

If they come from a divorce or separated family. And so we got responses and we put them in an episode, I'm just gonna share. One clip with you. Um, this is from Elise. Elise is I think, 16 years old. She's in our restored online community and she's just awesome. She is young, but she is wise beyond her years, as you're about to hear right now.

Hi, I'm Elise from Portland, Oregon. And I like to start this off by saying that, especially during the holiday season, it's so easy to look at other families and wish that your family was like theirs or wish that your whole family was under the same roof. and a good example of the sugar coated family is a Macy's holiday commercial.

You know, it's all smiles and color coordinating clothes, and it all seems too perfect. Right? Well, it's sugar coated and it's not real. what is real and what's genuine is what you've gone through. you've gone through a lot and it's hard. It's, it's not easy at all. Anyone that tries to tries to normalize divorce and to this easy thing, it's not.

And thinking about those sugarcoated families, it's really easy to ask yourself, what am I missing instead of asking what you're missing? What have you gained? I. We've all gained experience from this and lessons and things. We we'd wanna teach our future kids someday or something that will at least make our marriages a little easier.

Now that we've gone through this, we've gone through lots of experience and life lessons and things that have changed our perspective of the world. And, you know, sometimes that can be negative or positive. and during the holiday season, it's really easy to be sad or wish that certain people were there with you and wonder things.

But instead of doing that, try to be thankful for who is there for you. Try to be thankful for those who stick around. I mean, we've all, we all have someone, whether it's still your mom or your dad or a sibling. Or, you know, a pet . I mean, it's the little things and yeah, it's cliche to say that, but it's true.

It is the little things in life are so important and your family is a huge, huge thing. And it's, it's a hard thing to have to see your family break apart, but you are not breaking apart. You're learning things and you're going through new things and it's hard. Trust me, but. It's so important to not stray away from the fact that you're still loved.

There are so many reasons to be thankful. Think about the food you're going to eat during the holidays that is fun or gifts you get to give, or you receive little things like that. And. Try to focus on the people that are still there for you. And don't aim for a Macy's holiday commercial family. I mean, hopefully you guys know what I mean.

If you look up the commercials, you probably know, um, don't ask yourself, what am I missing? Think about what you have gained, what you have learned through all of this. So that next holiday season will, will be even better. Life's not perfect. Life. Isn't sugar coated. These are all genuine experiences you've gone through.

And instead of dwelling in it and being sad and wishing your family was something different, try to learn about and try to wonder what you've gained, because that is very important and just be thankful for what you still have. And the fact that you're still here sees are said, and. um, by promise it makes a difference.

So, uh, thank you for having me or listening. um, Yeah, I hope this comes in handy for anyone. And I really do hope that this holiday season is better or easy. And if it's not, I'm here for you in any way. And yeah.

Last up is episode 14 with again, Dr. Julia Sadusky. We talk about how to handle fear and anxiety, and I love this conversation. There's a lot of practical things that you can do. Uh, we're just gonna give you one of those practical things in this clip, but there's a lot more goodness, in this episode, if you wanna listen to episode 14.

One of the things that helped me years ago, I went through, you know, some pretty intense anxiety periods of anxiety. And one of the things that helped me, I don't know how clinical this is, but, uh, was just actually touching things around me, like a table, a chair. Mm-hmm something like that. Yes. For some, in some way it helped ground me in the present moment.

Instead of letting my mind just run off into. You know, whatever I was worried about. Absolutely. Yes. What you're speaking about is they're called grounding exercises. Whoever made up that name, nice. Uh, pretty creative, but, but yeah, just the idea, you know, one of the ways you do grounding is just what you described, you know, touching things, especially things that activate your senses.

So maybe it's touching soft things and then hard things. Uh, there's a, a quick tip of called five senses where we just describe what are five things that I. What are four things that I hear? What are three things I can touch? What are two things I can taste? And one thing I can smell. Hmm. And what you can do is you can, you know, grab different things to help with that.

You can light a sense of candle or smell. You can rub some lotion on, you can taste something sweet or something tart or sour. Um, there's lots of different ways to do that. Even splashing cold water on our face. I mean, anything that we can do to get us tapped into the present moment is gonna be really, really effective.

Um, and again, what, what you wanna do with that is not just do it, but actually. Immerse yourself in it, through describing what you're thinking about, what you're feeling in that moment. So if I'm feeling something soft, I'm gonna my head, describe the texture, describe the color. Um, and all of that, again, is what's activating that prefrontal cortex, which is so important.

Bring us to the moment. Actually,

that's a wrap. What a year, everyone I talk to is so ready for this. To be over. And so from all of us at restored, from my team at restored, just wanna wish you the best, wish you a Merry Christmas, happy new year, happy any other holidays you may celebrate. We really appreciate you listening to the podcast.

We appreciate your support, uh, for not only this podcast, but also for our ministry. So many of you have shared the podcast with others and we can't thank you enough for that. We really wanna help more people. And so you sharing with people that you know, who could use. Really helps a ton, by the way, I mentioned at the start of the show, uh, this is a great episode to share with new people who maybe aren't familiar with restored.

This really gives them a good sample of our content. Hopefully we can help 'em, uh, in other ways as well. And they'll become a listener. Like I mentioned, if you want more of this content, we'd love your support. We'd love for you to become a partner with restored in helping young people who come from broken homes, helping them heal and grow sick and feel whole again, and thrive in every area of their lives.

And so I invite you to support us financially to make a, a monthly donation, whatever you can do. We're asking for $25 a month, if you can do more great, if you can only do less, that's totally fine. We really just appreciate your support. And we wanna be able to, again, serve more young people who come from broken homes and you can donate by going to restored ministry.com/donate and restored ministry ministries to singular.

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